Thursday 26 June 2008

This Summer. Be different. Be very different. Be yourself.

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Ssup mahca..apa khabar lu orang? lama tak jumpa, khabar aku pery gut wan, sama dgn lu ma, i hope.

SOrry for lack of updates, mainly coz i got nothing interesting to report about, unlike others. Life now is going smooth, and normal, not to mention lackluster.

Its really good to be back, all the parents and house and all the food, and all the fffriends..err. We will come to that later. Subang Jaya is all well and good as usual, some few development here and there, new inti blocking taylors, pyramid 2 being as gorgeous as before, definitely worth going, and some not so expected events, for now at least.

So 4 months long holiday, "WOW", says majority people, "what are you gonna do for so long?"

"I'm gonna watch euro and play lots of futsal!" says A.

"Oh, I'm gonna shop till i drop!" says B.

"Huh? Shop? Please la, I want to SLEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP" says C.

"SLEEP? You gotta be kidding mate, I gonna get a real gf for the first time ever and pak toh like never before." says one dickhead.

Well none of these apply to me, I am currently working now. Yes, Jiat working. Something different this summer.





"THIS SUMMER, EXPECT SOMETHING DIFFERENT."





"EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED."





"FAILURE IS NOT AN OPTION."





"IT IS NOT A CHOICE EITHER."





" THIS SUMMER, EXPECT NOTHING."


Yes I'm currently working in my dad's company, full time trainee. Working hours, 9am-5.30pm. I'm working, for the first time ever. I'm thrilled.

Please don't ask what i do there. No not making coffee, no not Photostatting either, and no not answering phone calls. And lastly, NO, not a manager either.

Oh and well i get paid like all other trainees, a fixed amount of "pocket moneyyy". I do real stuff, like drawings and soldering, and learning sophisticated circuits and various types of control systems, and bout wiring's and electrical components from the control panel you get in power plants, sugar factory to the water pumps at the basement of Pavillion KL. Interesting. This is the real deal.

So some real stuff and first hand experienced for Jiat, I think it will be an invaluable experience for me, it is always good to start from below. Working allows one to meet new people and I've meet quite a number of trainees from around Malaysia, all from local U and 1 from Notts Malaysia. Really good to meet different people and not to mention having fun. Its good its good.

Well lets get back to the stuff I was talking. Before I came back, I have some special ideas, some interesting thoughts, and some glimpse of hope. I had the ideal thoughts in my mind.

Well, so far, its nothing but just a thought. A dream. Lets just say that things hasn't gone as well as I would have liked. But as you will probably be thinking, I would have been a billionaire by now if everything went my way. Same to you.

I've also been rather, say, anti-social lately. Goosh. Me being anti-social? That was the last thing that will come to to my mind. Maybe is the work and all, maybe its the climate, maybe its just the thing. Maybe its just me. Actually, come to think bout it, its not the matter bout lately. Maybe I've always been like this. Some reluctance being part of my personality. Or perhaps I was brought up like this. I don't know. Everything/everyone plays its part and have some say in this.

Well that doesn't mean that I'm unhappy now, that I'm depressed. I'm actually fine with it and getting on with it. Maybe this is good after all? Certainly a long term thing. Maybe thats just how it works. Maybe this is inevitable. Grow up, I'm 20 now omg. We all have to learn to survive alone sometimes, don't we? There will surely be a point in life that we have gotta do some things alone and past some time alone. So be it.

Don't get me wrong, I have a wonderful and caring family at home and many great friends outside. And they would be there if needed. Yeah.

But it certainly not what I expected. Really. And I'm NOT lonely ok. Never will. So take your mind off that now please.

So, 12.15am now. I sleep 12am and wake up 7.30am for weekdays now. No euro 2008 on weekdays for me. See what am I becoming. A man. An old man, sushi may say. But old is wise. And some training for the future never gonna do any harm is it?

Think ahead.

It may well be just the beginning of what will become a great journey.

Hang on and sit tight, Jiat boy.